The subject of these days...it seems to follow me.
I do believe in reason and science, I actually treasure them and I'm glad I have learned about them. But sometimes it's hard for me to accept one theory or another, especially when it is so different from what I am experiencing every day.
It's in my nature to react to all the things that happen around me, to try to find out the reasons behind them, to dissect them into bits and pieces...and still, I have the feeling it leads me nowhere.
I complicate things and sometimes I am so aware of this that it hurts. I would make it simple, really...I would...but when I try to do this it seems that other people don't...all in search for that thing that we call happiness: either love, professional success, family, friends, the nature of our activities, art...it's in every single one of them, the sum of some of them, the combination of others...or just our mere perceptions, memory tricks and bad imagination...
Still...we are here...not able to connect to each other, building bridges and gaps to keep our "ego" to ourselves, constructing realities that we don't know if we want, hoping that it will get better, that we will grow up and resolve all our issues.
I've decided to stop this some time ago; I don't have a plan, but I have my ways. It's about taking that responsibility towards myself and the "I" that I am or will be. Fear and uncertainty will still be there, no doubt about that...it's the way of facing them that will change, or at least improve.
No statement, just some reflection...
No conclusion, just a thought...
No promise, just the living of it...
Cuz I don't want to get tired, bitter or annoying and cuz I want to see Kitty again with that friendly face saying: "What's wrong with you, that you're so right?! So right the way you were?!"
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