How they turn around

Not because you want to or you see them coming...but because they happen without you even predicting. Call it blindness or denial, the name is not important...but the source is.
First you start with a new role, go on a path you think you might know, learn to know new people and then you begin rebuilding and creating, 'cuz it's the natural order of things...or so you think.
There are a lot of things that I will not be able to mend and bigger challenges will come this way...that's one thing that I know for sure...what I am trying to find out is how to avoid being alone in the process.
Somehow the balance isn't here...and alongside the joy was lost...it went away with some of the people that I was not able to keep close (for one reason or another).

I'm ready to have that back...cuz that's my energy.
I'm willing to apologyze, cuz it's my nature.
I'm not going to stop caring, cuz this is how I've grown.
I'll find I way to be more open, cuz that's how you'll get to know me.

And I'm sure that I can do this on my own, but I choose not to...cuz I'm not the center of my universe anymore...and I'm glad that I can say this ;)